voypoet's Journal

pixie is a cutie...wrote you this...
I sware to be true
I won't cheat on you
and I won't lie,
the rest is an honest mistake.

Yeah the deranged millionaire!

Any ways, Cirque kicked so much ass! I ended up in the front row middle aisle seat. Craig bought us cat 2 tickets, then we upgraded to cat 1 seats for 10 bucks each. Then kristen is part of this online club that let us upgrade in our section. so becuase we were the first in line for a free upgrade, we got better seats then everyone else who paid.

The show was literally breath taking. I actually lost my breate just by watching these guys, they were so good. I loved it! Kristen couldnt have been happier either, she was there smiling ear to ear wearing her mink coat. And we went to dinner at the ballet cafe, and then i saw a bunch of old friends before the show started, so it was a really good date.

Last night:party
This morning: get up at 7 to be at work at 10...

I hate getting to work hours before i can clock in. Oh well.

I met a bad ass chick with a blue mohawk. I think she is pretty cool, her name is Vhex, she gets her tatoos the same place i do, from the same guy who does my room mate. her birthday is the day before my room mates (so hers is today, Dawns is tomorrow, mine is monday) She knits and rides horses. She skanks and enjoys a ballet. She seems like a really cool chick.

yes messa you have to come see me!!! I miss you sooooo much! Man i have been thinking about the spc crew non stop lately, it almost makes me sad for skipping out on the last show....but heck no! That was way to much fun! Anyways, messa bear, my sweetness, you must come see me and make me happy!

I love Sam! Samantha you rock!!! i cant believe how long it has been since we have seen each other! Totally rad kid (skid, skod) i miss you soooooo much, come to tampa.

I am going to see Vireka tomorrow with Kristen, my girl friend of 6 months (can you believe i have been some what serious for 6 months?) horah for Cirque Du Solie. horah fo rrelationships that for no apprent reason work out. (even if she is currently driving you mad on the phone.....grrrrrr)

Soy needs to get a hold of me, if any of you can get a hold of her pass her on to me, get her to email me or call or come by they site and give me her email....i miss her!

Ive been painting alot lately. This pay check i spent all of my food money on a paint set, it is nice. my room mate works at a furniture company so he brings home lots of card board. So that is my niche now, cardboard and acrylics (sp)

Oh Yeah, and halloween!!!
First off...MAD PROPS to April, Who I hear about just about everytime i talk to some one from SPC. I am so proud, I totally knew you would kick ass, but honestly i didnt think you would get company this year, who knew it! Well Babe, I hope you hate it as much as I did, but I hope you still love like i did too...That is i hope you hate the polotics and drama and bs that goes on between company and troupe, i hope you still stick to your friends (they are good friends!) and I hope you dont change for the worse...BUT i hope you love the spotlight and the attention and the pure joy of gettting to be a part of something older and much bigger then any one person in that group.

Second of all, I never told anyone my story from halloween...For years and years and years now Scott has been the lead frank for the halloween show, well this year i was! I did two shows and one sold out. I was so excited, it totally rocked, When I turned around for the first time the crowd went absolutely nuts, and i kept the enegry up all night, i was so excited! There are REALLY good pics of me at ip.rhps.org (warning this is not for everyone, all you homophobs stay clear, these pics arent pretty)

Last Saturday I played Riff-Raff. This means I only have 2 more chacters to go...Trixie and Eddie...I have already played Brad Janet, Frank, Riff, Magenta, Columbia, and Rocky, so if i can squeeze these next 2 in with in two months I will have got them all in the first year. My Fav chacter is still frank of course, although Riff Raff did score me free Cirqu Du Solou tickets (spelling?)

I miss you kids, I really miss my Messa Bear, and the twins (mom, Marissa stole my cookie) i miss everyone so much...AHHHHHHHH I NEED TO GET IN TOUCH WITH SOY!!! I miss her the most. She is soo great. I started painting! I think she needs to know about that. I already had an offer to be put up in some ones private collection. now all need is 50 paper plates and a lot of paint (long story) lol, ok kids, mis you all, love some of you (although not most, lol) get in touch with me, wannabewookie@yahoo.com and i will send you my #

INcase you didnt notice...i dont get online much now days...

I miss you all, SOrcha, Liea (even though i see you every week) Tashu (every other week about) The Cool Two and her little (but bold) sister April, Pualina...Gosh, i havent heard from my high school friends in forever.

Well I am now working at heakin Reseach. This is probally the best job i could ask for. I am making a lot more money, the hours are better (i am getting more hours, but they are all 10-5 so i have evenings to do what i want.) the people are cooler (for the most part) and plenty of benefits (pick up left over products like energy drinks and food!)

Well guys give me a call, I have a nice apartment and everyone is welcome to come hang/crash on the sofa ect.

ALSO ANYONE AND EVERYONE WHO CAN MUST COME TO MY PARTY...DEC 24 9PM EST TIME...The actual party starts at 8, we will start toasting at 830, at 9 we will puch play on the Rent Soundtrack and sing along till it is over and done with. While the movie is good, we will be rocking to the original this night. EVERYONE has to come, it really means alot to have a good attendance at this party. No one will be told to drink, or told not to drink, but they will be around if you want them. However if you arent into that dont worry, no one gets absolutely shit faced to where you wouldnt want to be around them.

ok i get the fucking point liea...jesus...

I am out of the house, living in tampa now, makes me happy. I got a good job, making good enough money, working plenty hours. I am low on food...but eating is over rated...I get a pay check in two weeks...until then, i am living off...well...nothing. Something tells me this might happen a lot now days...

well, call the cell if you want...after 9 or wekends are best for me, becuse i am out of day min...sad story huh? 727 687 7002

I am off to tampa, Won't be home till Sunday. I gave up my baggage, and picked up a girl, I gave up my smokes and picked up gum (stupid girl friend doesnt want me to smoke) (grumble grumble grumble)

My mom and dad gave me a guilt trip for going to tampa...they want me to stay and clean the house for thier party...I am sorry, but sometimes, when you are 2 months late for a job interview, you have to think about yourself and what you need to do in order to thrive in society. I can stay home and clean the house till I am 35, but I would rather become an adult and live in the world, and make my own living and get a licsense and car and pay for my own food and rent and crap. All year I have counted on Soy buying me a mellow yellow, Kaeli having cookies, and Kelly bringing in pumpkin bread, and I am thankful for that...but I NEED to feed myself. I am going to tampa to get a job to pay rent and support myself. I just wish my parents understood, I am not trying to leave them behind, I am tring to make something of myself. Would they be proud of me if I stayed home and cleaned up after thier mess? no! they would wonder why I never made it out of the house. So they SHOULD be supportive of the idea...but they arent.

Oh well. Good bye. Call my cell after 9, or sat (i am out of day time min) miss you all.

Last night
So last night was fun...

Yesterday morning i woke up and felt horrible. my throught hurt like a bawd little monkey (as stewie would say) I made some calls to girls who either hurt me, or i hurt...none of which wanted to talk to me...no surrise. Kristen called me...i thought it would be best if we didnt hang out today, so i wasa jerk to her...a real jerk...so she went back to work, and i went to my bedroom to be emo, I put in Rent...hit random...and the first song that came on was "No day but today" in which mimi is trying to ask out Rodger ut he keeps pushing her away saying they an go out another day, and mimi sings no day but today. i called her back and asked if she would go to the park with me. We lied on my Ommm Blanket and talked about our problems, we talked about ricky, we talked Nick...who i dont like...we talked about devin (who I love, she is a great actress) so it was good to get out and talk things out with some one who cares. we are going out on Tuesday I think...we were talking about her prom and she said it suked for her, and i didnt go, so we decided to get dressed up and go to cafe bohemia, I am tinking about paying corey to come and play his guitar for us so we can dance together...lol, that would be fun.

yes, she is makin me happy, but she isnt ood for me...i know that. then again I am not good for me ethier. When i am with her, it feels like she is the answer to my prayers, but wen we are apart, i have my doubt. I dont doubt her, i doubt me. is it possible for me to make the right decission, it seems to me that the right decission would be to stop seeing girls all together, no more dating untill I can hold me own head up. but after last night, i know i have to go into the woods where nothing is clear.

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Dear Conforti's
~~~I am very glad to have meet you 2, you are both so ery caring and suportive...thank you for always being there for me, and everybody, i see you as a support beam in our circle of friends, everyone knows they can relly on ou two...loads of love...

Into the woods
It is no secret I am an emotional wreck, and that I am having serious problems with the ladies right now. But I think I found peace of mind today...

I was listening to Into the woods today...it is an ok musical, not my favorite by any means, but it is good. It has never meant much to me, becuase it is simply the adult verision of childhood stories. But while I was walking listening to the act 1 finale, some lyrics hit it home for me...when you find your wish, you can have your wish, but to get your wish, you cant just wish no to get your wish you go into the woods where nothings clear, where witches wolves and ghost apear... this week I have been up against some witches wolves and ghost, and I have had doubts about if I am doing the right thing about moving out of the house, but today those words gave me courage.

So tonight I am going into the woods, with Kristen. Thursday I am going with Ricky. I am a stranger in the woods, maybe some one will meet me. (for all those who know into the woods, but didnt get the refrence, check "it takes 2")

the good the bad the eddie
Ok, sooooooo.... bad news...Andrew informed me the other day that our plans fell to shit and he and I will NOT be living together in Aug (unless it is with my mom) The good news....I was talking to Ricky from Rocky and he told me I could stay with him. He shares a house with folks, and it is actually cheaper...I won't have to pay 1st and last month...so that is good, and it is 100 bucks cheaper! Hell Yeah! oh yeah....and he is finding me a job!

oh that fucking bitch....I am pissed, out right pissed...I cant believe she did that....So she tells me how she cant commit, how she doesnt want to get attached, then I let on that I am into her and she ignores me for a week. She starts communicating with me through her friends....rude as hell! and finally I find out tonight that she got into a serious relationship! So she is a bitch!

Yeah, I am still getting chewed out by two other girls...fuck em...they are great people, I love them, even now I can honestly say I love them, but they are chewing me out left and right, and I cant take it.

So I made out with this hottt girl tonight. Fun.

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you know, I get a head ache from the last 2 girls, then I made out with another one...this one is diffrent. No, really she is. #1 I think of her as a friend, I am not going to get jealous. #2 She knows where I am coming from, what I am going through, and where I want to go with her...#3No where. That is where I want this to go. I was (metaphorically) crying on her shoulder when she gave me her advice...I am going through way to much emotional shit, and I just need to have a positive experience to remind myself that all is well, and girls are still worth thier drama...and then we made out...for a long long time...happiness. Really, it worked, I am happy for tonight, tomorrow morning I have to deal with Sam...Racheal...ect...but tonight, I am smiling, and for any one who thinks I made a mistake, FUCK YOU!

no, I did, I made a couple mistakes, but not tonight, tonight I turned off my phone, and enjoyed myself. I am proud of that...At the begging of Rocky, I was nearly in tears, by the end of the night I am smilling, proud of my performance, and happy with my life.

Karma is a bitch
Karma is infact a bitch. I have been spending a lot of time having fun with but not getting close to girls lately...well I finally fell for one, and when I told her...she freaked out big time and is not talking to me any more

life does go on right? It is pathetic, but I am that low. I am really wondering if I should even try...this is normal...I think, everyone falls in love right?

Ok once again I was promised Sat night off, and once again, I was tossed in last min. I wouldnt mind doing it if I was not just thrown in....I love performing, i just want the reason I am doing it to be becuase I am good, not becuase Joey didn't show,Ryan is sick, Andy doesnt want to, what ever the reason...I want to either perform on my own behalf, or sitt in the audience and enjoy myself...whatever. as annoying as that can be, i love it...I really do. I love the chance to perform every weekend, i love people stopping me to ask if I am in rocky, I love wearing my cast shirt, and when people complament it.... I LOVE SAYING I'M ON CAST!!! I love it when people ask me how long my show is going on and I tell them it is every weekend, becuase then they ask "until when" and I say "until i get tired of it" lol, i love it.

However, I am sick of girls always wanting the same thing. geez, i was happy, why did she ask me to commit? I told her how I feel about it! But se asked anyways....I said "do I ask ou to put yourself in uncomfortable positions for me...then wy would you ask me to do that for you?" I know I know, commitment is all aout compremise...but I dont want to commit, and I DONT want to compremise.

It was fun while it lasted, but i will not screw myself over like i ave been doing for years now...i will not commit to her, or anyone.

Hmmmmmm...Jamies party was fun. I enjoyed it a lot. Lol, poor Ricky, I am a jerk. lol.

no no no, I concedered going to see it, I had to say no, for obvivous reasons, but I almost went to see cats.

Hey Kids,
I am pleased...I bought two very thin blankets, they are tye dye and patterned and in the middle their is the "Om" symbol. I am very pleased, they were cheap, and my brother has one fimiliar and his is very comfy, so hopefully mine will be as well.
I mentioned earlier that I almost knew a girl for whom I would change my mind...yesterday we went on a date...an old fashion date. What do I mean by old fashion? I mean the type of date that is no longer concered a date, but two friends hanging out becuase there are no expectations, no commitment, no promises...just me, her, and down town st pete. She is from the Tampa cast of Rocky Horror Picture Show. She is sweet, pretty, fun, witty, old fashion. Very old fashion. I would concider her a dandy almost, except she listens to mainstream music, knows nothing of Bohemia (yet), but elsewise, she is ver much a dandy.
I am reading the Bohemian Manifesto...yes, I am reading another book...on my own free will...and this book brings up other books I want to read now. I still wouldnt call myself the "reading type" becuase that implys that I have read a lot in the past, and that I will continue to read a lot...all I know is lately I have always had a book with me, and there are a couple more I want to read, those may or may not lead to me reading other books...Soy is slowly getting her wish...I am reading more, I told Loryn, and this new chick, I even concered going to see Cats the musical...
I don't think I have mentioned that I am planning a roadtrip. Me, Josh, Million, and my lady friend are going hopefully going to Miami and Keywest. That is Midjuly though. nothing is definite yet.
I am defineitely getting on my mothers bad side however...I am begging to think that every side is her bad side, not to mention everyside is a lot bigger then it should be. Ok that was mean.

HEY SAM!!! Remember when we use to chill out on the dock? Remember when everyone was tring to be like us whenever we danced around the camp or did something crazy? Remember trying to flip over peoples canoees? I GUESS YOU HAD TO BE THERE!!! Remember Pirrate pants? AND THEN I FOUND 5 DOLLARS Remember when we went Synchronized swimming (Sp)IT WAS THE BEST 5 DOLLARS I EVER FOUND Remember when we got home and talked on the phone and realized we both thought the same thing the whole time! IT WAS JUST LIEING THERE ON THE GROUND! Remember when our biggest worries were which counsler to sit with for breakfast/lunch/dinner? Remember when we spent 3 and a half weeks trying to decide what type of pictures we wanted to send each other? Remember when we were the coolest kids at camp...and we are still the coolest kids to ever hit up that place!

Last night was fun...a couple old friends from pcca was there, it was good to see them...Joe anne was there, i havent seen her since Districts. Shawn came to...hadn't seen Shawn since...well for 2 years come to think of it. So when Ed asked me to perform Criminologist I let Tyler do it so I could chill with them...to bad half way through the movie Andy decided he didn't want to play Dr Scott. So last night I played Dr Scott. I am thinking about trying to play everyone in Dinner Scene...wait, that is everyone except Trixie...Oh well, I have played Dinner Scene Brad, frank, and Dr Scott, so I only have to do Riff raff, Rocky, Magenta, and Janet. I am also thinking of doing trixie b/c I told people I was going to audition, and people have been asking me to do it since, it is funny. I could do it by the end of the summer.

Enough rocky for now...Let's see, life outside of rocky...I am enjoying my single-nes...oh wait that is cuase of rocky too...he he he...

I missed a LARP session on Friday and Robin got mad at me...oh yes my plan is working just fine...i like turning Lesbians into Bi's. I know it is sick, but I mean no harm, no offense, and i am not forcing anyone into anything.

Ruth Snyder...Anyone know who that is? I do, but I want to see who knows their feminist history...so if anyone can tell me before Wed, they get 3 Kudos!

Last night was odd...i was downtown when Jon gave me a mouse....I named him Riff Raff. Then went to the new Tampa cast of Rocky...and played the Asshole (Dinner scene Brad)

does anybody else feel like screwing themselves over royally this summer? It is my las summer at home, in a couple months i will be out of the house, and damn am i glad about that. I am going to miss being able to call Liea and chilling downtown...which is turning into a condo...the whole damn down town area is turning into a condo. I already miss sticking my head in the window at the end of 1st period to see Soy. I am going to miss sitting on top of the tables at lunch...loving you kids...hating that rambling bitch Liz. (not Myers, I love her, the other liz...Backer). oh well screw ou guys i am leaving...j/k i love you all. In the midst of my excitement, i want you to know I will miss you all very much.

I love flirting. I love making girls blush. I completely understand why i am single, and i hope no girl trys to take that away from me right now. i am so happy.

OK...The pic...Ip.rhps.org/cast/ted There is only one up right now, but there will be more.

Today I went To Circle K, 7-11, big lots...I didn't get over to Albertson today, but I did get an interview set up for Friday. So I am going to wait until I have gone through all these applications...

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